very often in life we would have to learn to make choices and set our own priorities, be it the outcome.
No one will come over and tell you that, hey you know you've made the wrong choices.
Well, when we were young we were TOLD to do what the adults deem as right and in the process we learn that such behaviors are acceptable.
As we grow up, we learn that there are social norms in which we have to abide too.
There again we guidelines everywhere for us to "follow".
Well, as much as I've said, not all things are like that. In fact, sometimes we are let to face certain circumstances where there is no right or wrong because its our own individual problem.
we are forced to make a decision even if we didn't like the idea of it, even if we didn't want it.
Regrets come after it, it is in this process where we learn, we grow to be a better person.
For me, I've chosen what i felt that i should do. But I've forgotten the fact that there are some things which does not happen this way. SIGH.
After so long, that kind of indescribable feelings just stayed on. still etched pretty deep in me.
I choose to control, i choose to ignore, i try to face it. I attempt to give my very best to others.
But its not like this, recently, i've been watching this TV drama and somehow it made me realized that some things can't be forced.
If we like it then yes, we should go for it all.
I don't know how i should feel about this anymore. I wish there is a definition, there is a guidelines to it.
I'm at edge of a cliff, trying to stay alive but standing abiding to my roles,any wrong step would mean that i will fall into the sea. I've been all too careful these days.
I wish i knew what i want. I wish i can make a decision and stop dragging it on.
Stop lying to myself, be happier.
Maybe, just maybe, i'm better left alone.
Sometimes i just wanna cry so bad and then again there's no one there for me to share my woes.
I'm just one of a kind=.=
No matter how hard i cry, how much i cry, no one knows. They are not me, i don't know how to cry in front of anyone.
This is what happens when the person you used to share with is not around anymore.
I wan to learn to share again, but i can't anymore.
#Pessimistic.
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