after so long...

i still love you.
not any lesser, just no longer so nervous when i face you.
i've no idea why, initially i thought that maybe "hey, i've already got over it"
but no, not at all.
every every every single moment, spent talking or even looking at you is just like a dream.
why things that seem so easy to reach out for no longer seem to be the same anymore?
why? why? why?
i still can't believe i cried.
why am i always so dumb, stupid and foolish?
is it really worth while?
i don't know.
yesterday, i don't see it.
not at all except the last part...
i've to admit i was happy when u said that.
really.......
even if we'll never be together.
i just hope you'll find someone better.
yes, i still love you. i don't know why.
i really feel so stupid, really down right dumb to the max.... )):
despite saying all this, i'm still willing to do almost anything for you.
really...
what i see now is... everything that i've been trying to remove you from me entirely has been a failed attempt.
the moment you asked, everything was ruined. this whole 4 months.....
HAIS.
sometimes, i really wonder why,