yesterday night i was thinking why i could not actually come to accept B.
its so weird, my brain must be preoccupied with other things.
then, i thought. what happens if he changed for the better next time?
LIKE, becomes more handsome, smarter?
would i be able to accept him then?
but then it dawned upon me that, i would be liking/loving him because he had the looks.
the perfect guy appearance.
then wouldn't i be loving him because of his appearance and not because i feel for him?
its a different thing.
however, didnt mum and dad came to love each other after a long long time being husband and wife?
there is this chinese saying" re jiu shen qing"
does it really work?
because, even till now i don't dare to look into his eyes.
i'm afraid like a wrong message would be sent across.
you know like some haywired computer? yea, that's what i meant.
pretty dramatic isn't?
but still, does it really matter?
i don't think i'll ever like him.
not now definitely.
but maybe in future?
i don't know.
i think i do not like him because of his characters.
it must be something that got to do with his characters that i dislike or else i don't think the repulsion would be that strong.
i think i have to stop thinking about such things.
because somehow i'm feeling stressful D;
can u imagine feeling stressful due to such insignificant things?
i'm still growing up.
i still have got a couple of youth(:
now that reminds me i'm not that young either.
in the end i still have to say that things would never ever work the way you want to.
even if it does, somehow or rather we will be the ones who is going to ruin it in a way or another.
i really miss those days during night classes before exams(:
i'll never forget one of the night when you asked if i would miss you i said yes i would and i just smiled back.
may sound like some sarcastic, but it came from the bottom of my heart(:
Width 410px would look sweet. :)