i've really got to get a hang of myself.
have been pretty emtional this couple of days.
take for example, yesterday i was watching tv at night.
as usual. then suddenlyy the show started playing the dad and the boy parting each other.
very saddening.
i was touched but felt nothing...
until suddenly a flashed back occurred.
i was kinda stunned that i tot of that.
no maybe i should put it this way, i thought of him):
his laughters and all. then there goes my tears.
started flowing down like nobody's business.
i felt the pain.
there shouldn't be any pain.
but somehow i fear losing.
that's how weak i really am.