love you, love you not.decided to blog because i aint feeling right.
how does it feels when you try to make friends and talk to others when they just gave u a cold shoulder?
i think i would have just ignored the person.
but now, its someone which is much closer. my friend.
i dont know what how i feel about him or watsoever, there's so much things waiting for me to do.
the only time when i think is when i'm sleeping or eitherwise i'm alone at home.
sometimes quiet time is only present i'm up on the bus alone.
it feels so great to be alone, to be able to think through what you've done.
speaking of which, i'm so guilty of many things that i've done these days.
i've made tons of mistakes in split seconds.
and before i knew it, i'm regretting whatever i said and had done.
i guess i'm so dead, or otherwise i've got to improve my thinking skills.
it has to polish up abit isnt it, i'm thinking far too slowly.
okay, back to topic.
sometimes, there'sso many people in my mind that i cant make out which is mroe important to me.
i cant find one and i realise i've been giving up and trying hard all these while depending on my mood.
this feelsso shitty especially when i keep trying half way to talk them and half way through sth snap across me and i held myself back.
i feel so dumb, so foolish. but whatever, i still think its more appropriate to concentrate on my studies, though it seems dumb when there's so many friends out there dating.
HA HA Ha -.-
can we start from zero. we cant.
its a fact. we're no longer the close friends that we use to be.
alrights, maybe you could change it. but i cant, that kind of feeling is not there.
it irks me sometimes to see you speak and your actions are totally freaking me out.
not frightening just that after seeing it, i wonder why i've got such friends.
its weird and i dont think i can accept it though i can try to.
i swear those glasses are just secretly building around us.
somehow, i prefer it that way. i dont want some direct contact with you and all.
i want that distance, i simply feel uncomfortable about it.
i cant reject you, i feel so terrible right now but who can i turn to?
i've got no one to trust, to understand me.
and most importantly to consol me and advice me.
i cant approach guys can i? they're so different from girls.
but which femal can i turn to now? i think none.
i'm so depressed, in my unique way.(:
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