i'm glad finally everything's in place.
however, i just realise i kept crying.
for hell know what reason!OMG.
i've estimated that i cried for either 5 or more times a day.
this is a horrifying thing though.
i wonder if i'm suffering from PMS or rather am i having some kind of depression.
not only that
i've got to dominate some of my "creative" brain cells.
they are killing me!
they tried to kill me but making me fantasize over ridiculous stuff.
while studying. while bathing. while sleeping.
and even while watching tv!
i'm going bongus already.
sometimes i wonder what would happen.
i'm surpressing those feelings.
i've been surpressing.
this is totally like a vocanoe.
and now its erupting.
but i've got to hold it long enough till eveything disappears.
when everything returns to zero.
the state of equilibrium to me.
how i wish, you never told me those things, those words.
and most importantly, know you not.