i was shocked.
taken aback.
when...
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i actually dreamt of
you.i never thought that would actually happen.
maybe i've been thinking a lot about it, lately.
how the hell did all these thoughts find its way through my complex brain?
i wonder,
did that mean i really did and i can do it?
i wonder, yet again.
regrets after regrets.
i've been trying to make things right.
like decieveing myself that everything would be okay in a month or two.
now its coming back after a whole 3 months or even more.
i hate it.
i'm sorry, i promise and i broke it.
but still, i wanted to promise again.
however,
you restrain.
you held yourself back.
i tried,
you know it.
mabe its because, its this year.
an important year for both
you and
meso maybe, i shouldnt allow myself to fall into it.
but hv i already fallen half way through it?
i dont know either.
its not something i know until i allow myself to.
i dont want to know how i feel about it,
i dont want to know how you feel about it either.
cause it doesnt make any difference any longer.
you're not going to make any moves.
neither will i.
is sacrifical
still necessary?
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